bobbie's world

Meh!

2006-12-20T12:50:00.000+01:00

It's all change and no change at the moment. I feel a bit up and down at the moment. Christmas is a funny time of year for bringing back a lot of memories that you'd rather not remember. Somrtimes you get a bit fed up of battling, but other days like today I quite enjoy it. I had another bad weekend but have had quite an up week. Hopefully it will continue.

Feeling Philisophical

2006-11-16T15:40:00.000+01:00

Today is strange, I feel strong and upbeat even if life does suck today. One little thing and I will ok again, but sometimes a little thing can be the biggest thing of all. Sometimes I wish I was a buddist, personal growth leading to personal fullfillment. Instead of all this uncertainty and bullshit. Pateince is certainly not a virture I pocess and why should I be bloody patient? Why can't people just treat you with the respect you deserve? Rant to be continued in my head all day and all night long...

Running out of Gas?

2006-11-10T17:04:00.000+01:00

Same old, same old which is sometimes nice but is sometimes boring as hell. I'm so restless at the moment, I just go from being really hyper and focused to having no energy and no inclanation to do anything. I'd say it was the drugs but I don't do any.

Today is a hyper day where I feel really with it and don't really question anything. This morning was a "Hmmmm is this boring me now", which changed to a "maybe" which changed to "what the fuck". Sometimes a car just runs out of gas and you have to decidee whether to ditch the car or fill it up again and things are getting close to that point...

And here's to you...

2006-11-06T13:09:00.000+01:00

I am now a divorcee! I will be playing the Mrs Robinson role with relish. Hmmm could be very dangerous in my line of work! Ah well pretty happy with what I've got at the moment, no hassle and fun, a policy of non-involvement. Casual it's the future. Sorry my cough is really playing up at the moment...

"Buried alive in the Blues"

2006-10-12T11:34:00.000+01:00

Where has the time gone?

Things here are as usual a bit maaaad. It seemed like they were calming down but it wasn't to be. This year has been really good, really bad and most of all really strange. Sometimes it feels like this has all happenned to soemone else and then i realise this is my life and it's all happenning now. It's all rather exciting and rather unreal at the same time, peaks and troughs doesn't even come close!

Yay!

2006-09-21T16:00:00.000+01:00

It has been so busy and I'm so tired but it has so far all been worth it! Work is very good at the moment and there are 2 new socities int he pipeline to be discussed at the next exec meeting, one more and my target is achieved! Hooray!

I've had a lot of shit this week, nasty messages on answer phones, my front room flooding, no sleep and lots of hours at work but I'm still smiling just!

I am bloody fantastic!

Working weekend

2006-09-18T12:34:00.000+01:00

This weekend, I've worked and got lashed and that's about it. Friday was mad, Saturday was recovering and Sunday was not bad at all.

At least the students seem nice this year, last year there were some little gits at Kirkstall, but this year they were all lovely.

Looking forward to the next couple of weeeks being over as work is mad and I have too much going on at the moment to devote enough time to it all.

Still good where's the catch?

2006-09-12T18:00:00.000+01:00

Things are looking pretty damn good at this moment in time. I think a lot of it is to do with me, I feel better about things so they are better if that makes any sense. I'm back to my smiley confident self which can only be good. Smile and the world smiles with you, cry and you cry alone is about as cliched as it gets but like most cliches it is also very true...

Even better?

2006-09-11T16:14:00.000+01:00

Today has been a very productive working day, there will be many more of those in September, believe me. I will be glad when it all calms down a bit, but at least it stops me stressing about everything else!

Things are looking very good on some fronts and decidedly promising on others so it's all still good. I'm taking a little risk today so that I get more of a reward later, not just on one but on two fronts. Hopefully it will pay off. I am becoming quite a strategist recently.

At this moment in time I'm quite proud of myself, I have so much going on one way or another but I'm coping with it. I'm even in control of some of it,at least for now!

Still good

2006-09-07T13:57:00.000+01:00

I am so tired today,my dreams at the moment are really vivid and I wake up feling more tired than when I went to sleep. You can die a thousand deaths while sleeping and it's bloody exhausting!

Work is certainly keeping me out of mischief as it's pretty full-on. i have a meeting with my boss soon where I have to give a convincing case for why I should attend the Sports Reps training. Not that I have a an ulterior motive or anything. Watch this space...

I have so many things to concerntrate and sort out at the morning that it's a wonder I have time to come to work, never mind work my ass off when I'm here. Anyway stratergies to plan and all that so must dash.

Still strange and still good...

2006-09-06T14:55:00.000+01:00

Work is busy at the moment, it is starting to dawn on everyone that the new term starts for real in less than 2 weeks! I don't think anyone is in any shape or form ready! But it should all work out ok in the end, let's do the show right here and all that...

Personally things are a little bit curious and have a lot of questions still to be answered but things could, (don't believe in should anymore) be a bit clearer after the weekend.

Till then it's Chill City here.

Strange but good I reckon...

2006-09-05T14:33:00.000+01:00

Today has taken an unexpected although good turn. Sometimes you never know what is going to happen next or whether it is a good idea but soemtimes you have to sat "What the Hell!" and go for it anyway.

It's difficult for me to consider myself in any shape or form as I've got so used to considering someone else's feelings all the time and not even thinking about my own. I have to get out of that menatality otherwise eveyone else will walk all over me too!

Sunshine even when it ain't raining

2006-09-04T12:31:00.000+01:00

Things seem a bit brighter today even though nothing has really changed. It's just a case of dealing with whatever this week throws at me, at least I feel in better shape to deal with it.

The rugby on Friday was fantastic. Can the real Scott Donald please stand up? I still think we'll get pulverised Saturday at Saints though. Saints are getting the hub cap as well which will be nice, think I'll eb making a hasty exit after the final whistle!

It's a little bit funny...

2006-09-01T12:03:00.000+01:00

Things are a little bit strange again. I'm kind of juggling too much at the moment, but if you focas on lots it means you don't have to concerntrate on one thing and that makes the main thing a bit easier to cope with!

Yesterday and today have a bit easier but I've had a nightmarish 2 weeks and don't really know how I've got through them. I need to go away and re-group and then it gets a bit easier but no less complicated!

Sometimes it's fun and sometimes it's drudge but it is never boring.

Back Home

2006-08-21T11:48:00.000+01:00

Am back in my kingdom today, sitting in my new office at Headingley, I think I'm going to be very happy and productive here! Well happy anyway!

Had a good weekend, Leeds won, halting a 5 match losing streak. We haven't lost 6 in a row since 1958 so it was a good result! We were rather lucky though.

Have a busy week ahead, out every night this week, I don't know how I have time to come to work. Good job i don't have a proper job that's for sure...

Work and Play

2006-08-17T11:20:00.000+01:00

Work is hotting up now which is both good and bad! Good because it's more challenging and makes the day pass a bit quciker, bad because I'm having to work my ass off! It wil be a good feeling when Freshers is over and it's hopefully gone well!

Personally I'm good, laid back and shrugging my shoulders all over the place. I'm keeping out of trouble for now but am well aware it's just waiting round the corner. I'll worry about it then till then it's yeah whatever!

Happy...again?

2006-08-15T16:19:00.000+01:00

I am in such a good mood today which is strange, considering how I felt when I got up and how much work I've done today! I'm also wearing green which is even more disturbing as I have a patholigal dislike of it! Maybe this top will change my mind as it's certainly given me a positive outlook today. I guess there are other factors and that tiger is throughly brassed off but it's going ok at the moment.

It's all a bit strange at the moment in all senses of the world, but trying to just go with the flow which is easy for me but not always productive.

Ho hum, it's a ll a mystery to me...

Top of the World Ma

2006-08-10T08:52:00.000+01:00

Feel in an amazingly good mood today, very focused and full of energy! I'm sure this place will suck that out of me! I'll just enjoy it while it lasts. As usual have quite a busy week ahead in terms of work and socially. things are pretty goos at the moment. I really will have to think up code names for people so I can slag them off or big them up to my heart's content, but with my scatiness I'd forget who they are

There's one person in my world who is really winding me up at the moment, which is not like me I'm very laid back and accepting but some people get right under your skin. He joins the ranks of Brenda, Mark Gasnier and Willie Talau! It's that bad, in fact he probably surpases them. My ex doesn;t even figure, it's more contempt i feel for him, he's not worth hatred and high blood pressure! But then neither are the not so fab 4 but I just can't help it!

O'Rouke for president!

Wednesday blues

2006-08-02T14:40:00.000+01:00

Having a typically horrible Wednesday! I feel really fucked off and resentful! The rain is lashing down outside and I'm feeling really unmotivated and insulular. To be fair I have quite a lot to be worried about at the moment but when don't you?

I'm sure I'll be back to my smiley chilled out self soon, I hope so because I'm pissing myself off!

If I could I would hiberante!

Friday!

2006-07-28T15:08:00.000+01:00

All fridays should be lovely and sunny like this! It's a little less humid today which helps the day pass a bit more quickly! I'm going to my dad's tonight so my liver will be taking a bit of a hammering this weeekend... No change there then!

I have a busy couple of weeks ahead so I'm glad it has been a quiet week this week. I don't really know how i'm going to fit it all in but I'm sure I'll cope!

Less than a hour to go and counting...

Blah blah!

2006-07-27T13:06:00.000+01:00

Not very good today, no energy and a bit braindead today. I feel like Rip Van Winkle would have if he'd been woken up early! I'm struggling on a s usual though! I'm sure I'll come round!

Last night wasn't very realxing or at least not in the way I intended! I was spark out by 8pm. Proof indeed that staying in isn't good for you! Well that's my story anyway and I'm sticking to it. Another night in tonight and a weekend at dad's beckons so should save some money and some energy!

Wishing Superman hadn't returned

2006-07-26T08:59:00.000+01:00

Went to see the new Superman film last night, it was absolutly awful, no storyline, a cliched script and not a patch on the Christoper Reeve epics which mananged to be funny, camp and entertaining. The highlight besides the apperance of Ian Roberts obviously was a small child in the audience crying because she thought Superman was dead! I'm sure she wasn't the only person in there who felt like crying!

I left work at 3.20 yesterday as it was so unbearably hot in the office. I felt like I was going to pass out, hope it's a bit more managerable today otherwise I'll be begging to go back to Headingley for the summer! I miss the old place particualrly my exercise to and from work.

I'm really tired today, it's impossible to sleep in this heat.

I thought troubles came in 3s!

2006-07-25T10:40:00.000+01:00

Let me tell you about my catalogue of disaters last night! First of all the light bulb in the front room just fell out, it has been working perfectly for 2 days and it just fell out. It took about 15 mins and a lot of swearing to get it back in. Well after that little episode I was ready for a gin and tonic. Could I get the top off the tonic bottle? I swear it was glued on. Another 15 mins and some sharp work with a knife I managed to open that. Result! Then i went upstairs to get something out of the spare room the door won't open I spend 10 mins and lots of brute force trying to open it, no joy. I think fuck this I'll go to bed fate is trying to tell me something. I go to bed, thinking I want a little light relief from a "friend" and the fucking batteries had run out! Some nights it's just not your day.....

Fun Fun

2006-07-24T11:03:00.000+01:00

Another fun-packed weekend which didn't go entirely according to plan but hey it was very enjoyable. Everytime I get hammered on wine I vow never to drink it again, not because I don't like it but becuae there is nothing worse the next morning than the taste of off wine in your mouth. It doesn't matter what you eat or drink or how many times you brush your teeth you just can't get rid of it! I was relieved when I woke up Sunday morning and it had finally gone! Gin it's the future.....

I saw the best match I've seen for a long time on Saturday, it had everything. Shame the Leeds fan could only see fit to whine about the ref's performance....

Yesterday went to the rugby league heritage museum which was fantastic, it seems that Stevo has put most of the money into it while the RFL have contributed rock all, about par for the course.....

Yay!

2006-07-21T16:24:00.000+01:00

Today I am in a very good mood, after a horrible evening yesterday, where I had to do something quite unpleasent. Anyway tis done now and at least it is one less thing to worry about.

I can get back to fun, frolics and pulling the tiger's tail!

Reflective Thoughts

2006-07-20T10:29:00.000+01:00

Feel a bit reflective today, I prefer it when my brain is numbed by gin or depression! Reflective is not good it leads to action and regrets. I will have to keep myself on a tight leash today or there's no telling the fuck ups I'll get myself into. Playing games is much more exciting than being honest and beating your chest! But only when it's you doing the game playing!

Nothing Changes

2006-07-19T11:37:00.000+01:00

That tiger must be getting pretty mad now I reckon. There's only so many yanks he can take, but it's like i can't help myself, I know it's wrong but i have to do it anyway! It's a shock after 8 years to realise you're the same stupid fool at least in essence that you were before. It's way more fun though.....

Ho Hum

2006-07-18T11:48:00.000+01:00

Things have changed a lot since Saturday, nothing particulally happenned but a lot changed. I'm undecided if it's a good or a bad thing, so I'll get back to you on that one. It was certinly suprising. Yeah whatever works as well for this situation as it does for any other I find.....

All that Jazz

2006-07-14T10:53:00.000+01:00

Ho hum, it's a funny old life. Talking to my friends last night made me realise how mad everything is at the moment and how much me and my life have changed in the last few months. I am a completly different person living a completly different life and I am in the main much happier than I have ever been!

I've been told i should write a book about the last few months but I don't think anyone would believe it, it would have no credibilty at all! Truth is indeed stranger than fiction, at least in my world.....

Better than all the rest...

2006-07-13T11:20:00.000+01:00

This week with the big exception of Tuesday has been very good indeed.It has been fun and very relaxing. I'm going out for a ruby later which I'm looking forward to. I really wish I had a pc at home, it might improve my productivy at work! It would be a very good investment.

Quote of the day, taken from an application form for a job at our place "My personal motto is just do your best and let God do the rest" Absolutly hilarious!

Keep Smiling....

2006-07-07T10:05:00.000+01:00

What a horrible week this has been! With the exception of Monday which started off very unpromisingly but ended up good and Wednesday it has been a shit house week! I am hoping that today my luck will change for the better, as my face is aching from smiling through the pain!

I feel very low and cynical today and all I want to do is go home and put my head under the covers except it is far too hot to do that!

Life is still very hectic and very confusing which is all good. I'm sure I will be back to my usaully happy self soon, even if I have to drag myself to it kicking and screaming!

Messing with Tigers

2006-06-23T11:31:00.000+01:00

Hmmmm last night was interesting. I don't know quite what to make of it! Things that intrigue are dangerous but I guess that tiger still needs it's tail pulling!

Better Days Ahead

2006-06-22T11:30:00.000+01:00

I feel a lot better today, more like myself and not as sad and distant from everything! I've even done some work and stayed off messenger! Get me!

I need to go to the bank and pay my huge mobile bill, the moral is don't call someone in a far-off land when you're hammered as it will cost you lots of money! In fact don't call anyone when you're lashed or text them either it can get you in a lot of trouble! However it can be a lot of fun too!

Tonight could be a little far-out I reckon, if it happens. I have that feeling now I'm going to get blown out...

The thing is tonight is such a bad idea, I could get myself in a lot of trouble, secrecy is the key! Tell no one otherwise I will have to kill you!

Rough with the Smooth

2006-06-21T14:09:00.000+01:00

Had quite a bad night last night, just felt really down and depressed about everything, sometimes everything just gets on top of me. Still felt a bit shit this morning but have cheered up now!

I guess I have to expect it, but just wish things were a bit easier. I just have to stay strong and focused on myself. I'm not very good at being selfish but I have to be at the moment. I have to look after myself, am really fragile, strong as well but fragile!

Anyway tomorrow will hopefully cheer me up no end or fuck me up completely!

Welcome to my world!

2006-06-13T10:33:00.000+01:00

Everyday my life gets a bit more surreal. I should really be frightened about where this is all going but it's all a bit yeah whatever! I don't know if this is the real me, a reaction to what has happenned or something in-between. All I can say it is fun and very very strange! I think I'm having a mid-life crisis a little bit early! I can't beleive how much my life and me have changed in 4 months! I feel like a different person. I guess all this crap has done me a massive favour, I still hope he rots in hell though!

Something in the air?

2006-06-05T10:07:00.000+01:00

Life is a bit fucking mental at the moment. something really strange is happenning to me but I can't really pin point what it is! In true fuck it fashion though I'm embracing it! Where will it all end? Probably with my own self destruction at this rate.....Ah well what a a way to go!

Still no news!

2006-05-15T10:55:00.000+01:00

Still no concrete news to report. It's a case of hoping and waiting at the moment! The story of my life!

I'm keeping pretty positive though, quite a few nice things have happenned in the last few days. I had a fab night out on Friday at the rugby. We lost and were truly awful but partying with Hull fans who ahve won is a lot better than partying with hull fans that have lost! Darren always cheers me up when he's drunk he's hilarious!

Nobody mention the scottish play...

2006-05-09T09:49:00.000+01:00

If I have ever needed any luck or a break it's today. In a few hours all will be clear but the waiting is killing me. I know I can do this and I will be livid if a man in a suit doesn't belive I can.

So anyone taking a quick glance at this please think of me at 1pm this afternoon.....

Quelle Suprise

2006-05-08T14:57:00.000+01:00

I had some news on Saturday that should've knocked me for 6 but it didn't. Maybe I'm learning to cope, maybe I'm turning all this into a positive experience, I don't know. I continue to suprise myself every day.......

Life is a caberet!

2006-05-03T10:19:00.000+01:00

I've had a run of days that have been quite normal and relaxing which is all good. I'm just enjoying it as I'm sure there is more high drama to come!

Work is pretty quiet still but got a late night tonight to attend a LINKS meeting. It will eb nice to meet Naz the president after chatting to him on the phone and on e-mail most of the time.

I've taken the decision to go to Headingley on Friday but I will not be standing in my usual spot, I will be incognito! I've got to go sometime so may as well go as soon as possible!

Bits and batty

2006-04-27T11:47:00.000+01:00

I forgot to post yesterday how slack is that? I came on early doors and thought I'll eb back earlier for a bit of musing but completly forgot! Not that I have much to say but I'll apoligise for not saying it.

I'm reading a lot of poetry at the moment, out loud on my own at home and listening to clasical music! I'll be dressing in caftons soon and buying The Independent! I guess it's just nice to spend your time doing what you want to dow ithout considering the needs of others at all. It's just a heady feeling!

I'm going out tonight for a few g and ts so looking forward to that. I'll be glad when my own bank account is set up and my money is my own again. Independence and freesom is what I should be looking towards!

Yom Hashoah

2006-04-25T13:14:00.000+01:00

I got a postcard today from Jules in Thailand. She ahs been ace sending e-mails from lots of exotic places and even some pics. She seems to having a great time. I bet Jojo really regrets not going with them now for that dead head bloke of hers. Why are we all such fools for men????

Today has been reasonable but didn't sleep well last night at all. I just feel so stressed and strung-out all the time. i guess I expect a lot of myself, at least I'm here and functioning and living my life. I'm not hiding, I'm facign up to my problems and gettign on with it but it's like a candle has been blown out inside me. I don;t feel like myself anymore, I feel like an automatom. I'm sure I'll ge there though!

Sharpe was fab last night, even though you always what's going to happen ie Sharpe will save the day. it's nice to have something predicatable in a world of uncertainy!

Today is Yom Hashoah, the date in the Jewish calendar where they remember the Six Million Jews who perished in the Holocaust. I was sent this poem by leeds JSOC to commerate today.

Holocaust
by Barbara Sonek

We played, we laughed
we were loved.
We were ripped from the arms of our
parents and thrown into the fire.
We were nothing more than children.
We had a future. We were going to be lawyers, rabbis, wives, teachers, mothers. We had dreams, then we had no hope. We were taken away in the dead of night like cattle in cars, no air to breathe smothering, crying, starving, dying. Separated from the world to be no more. From the ashes, hear our plea. This atrocity to mankind can not happen again. Remember us, for we were the children whose dreams and lives were stolen away.

Dull and Duller

2006-04-24T13:05:00.000+01:00

Back at work as I haven't been very well and today I feel rubbish too! My head is all spinny and I'm tired and a bit grumpy. I'm not sleeping very well at the moment.

Work is a little slow and I'm waiting for the solicior to get back in touch with me so am feeling a little tense too.

God this entry is depressing, I am not sat here feeling sorry for myself honest!

Anyway Sharpe the concluding part is on tv tonight with the ever-sexy Mr Bean so that should cheer me up!

Quote of the Day: "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent" Eleanor Roosevelt

Sloe going

2006-04-19T11:12:00.000+01:00

Quite a busy chillin' holiday weekend. Lots of gin and not much crying that's a big improvement in my opinion. I really should've booked this week off work as I have nothing to do except surf the 'net! Ah well more chillin' but no more gin at least not in working hours!

By the way the other week I tried sloe gin as there was no real gin at work and it was foul. It tasted all berry-like and was a very strange colour. It was like the difference between real lemonade and that carbonated shit that everyone drinks, a completly different drink. Needless to say I switched to vodka and cordial orange after that! I would like to point out my drinks were consimed after I'd clocked out. Work is not so bad that I need a drink to get through it! Life maybe but not work...

Thumbs down for Akbhars!

2006-04-13T09:45:00.000+01:00

I went out for a curry last night.It was a bit disappointing, I had vegetable rogan josh and it was really bland and dull. It is the first bad curry I've ever had at Akbhars. A new addition to the service is to bring out a platter of fruit. The fresh pineapple was a delight but the shrivelled up orange had obviously seen better days!

Yeasterday was not the best of days, I feel like a hunted animal at the moment. They say animals are at their most dangerous then, lets hope so!

B and Ps

2006-04-12T10:29:00.000+01:00

I'm just reading a new book, from the library before you ask, it's all part of my economy drive! It's called Reading Lolita in Tehran by Azar Nafisi and I'm really enjoying it. I will comment more on it when I've finished it but it's the first new book I've read in a while that has excited me.

Work is very slow this week and will be even slower next week but I can always find things to do. I've got another meeting with my new boss tomorrow. He wants to do lots of one on ones so we can get to know each other. It will be strange having a manager who manages!

I would like to say text-gate is over but I have an awful feeling it's just beginning.......

Reflections!

2006-04-11T11:31:00.000+01:00

I haven't got too much to do at work a the moment which isn't the best as I'd prefer to keep busy. I have 5 days off coming up though (including the weekend) and I'm already pretty busy for those. I'm very lucky to have such supportive friends and family.

R is bugging me loads now which is why I'm seriously thinking about changing my mobile number. It just makes things harder when he keeps contactng me, it doesn't matter what it's about, it just drains me. I would say 1 in 5 messages are necessary as well which just makes it more difficult. He took the desicion to leave not me, I'm just trying to make the best of a horrific situation.

The best isn't that great but it's all i've got left to fight for.

Definitely Brighter

2006-04-10T11:07:00.000+01:00

I went out on Friday to Horsforth with Rebecca and some of her friends. It was fun to go somewhere new and meet people who don't know you! I always feel a bit out of it at those sort of things anyway so it wasn't any different to before! I was home quite early though as I was hammered, I maybe shouldn't've had a few cheeky ones before I went out!

Saturday, spent most of the day at Mum's as R was moving his stuff out. It was a relief to get back and not have to look at his stuff scattered everywhere. It wasn't difficult at all to look around and just see my things, I thought it would be but it wasn't.

Sunday, I went shopping and Cat bought Mum's old tv over for me. SKY isn't working so may ring up and cancel it now rather than waiting....

I was having a reasonable day until about an hour ago, the sooner I change my mobile number the better.....

Spring should be in the air

2006-04-06T10:11:00.000+01:00

Today is very dark and very cold, it feels more like Winter than Spring. I think I might change my mobile number soon and then only those people I want to contact me can and I will have some peace and not have to worry and hope all the time. A small thing but a big effect.

Teh meeting yesterday was very productive. I really hope we can get something organised for the students who put their free time into socities, volunteering and course reping. A small gesture could go a long way.

Brighter?

2006-04-05T09:32:00.000+01:00

Got another meeting down at Civic today. At least I get to leave the office with my new job. Really horrible day yesterday so looking for a good one today. Even No Angels failed to cheer me up last night! It is sunny today but still cold, it's hard to be morose when the sun is shining but I'm trying my best!

Moving forward?

2006-04-04T09:04:00.000+01:00

I have an appointment with a solicitor on friday which I'm dreading but at least I will have more of a clue about where I stand with everything.Everything is really tough at the moment. You wonder how you're going to get through it, yet you doe very day. Life does go on, just not your life.

A good Monday???!!!

2006-04-03T09:04:00.000+01:00

The weekend has had a healing effect on me and I now feel strong and back to myself again. I didn't go out on saturday as planned and the night in wallowing did me the power of good. I have to face up to things and if I simply keep myself busy all the time, I'm not doing that. My strength and optimism continues to suprize me but it's gettign me through these dark days, dark days that suddenly don't seem as dark as they did a few days ago.

Rainy days

2006-03-31T08:50:00.000+01:00

Not having a very good couple of days, feel a bit fed-up and very sad. If i didn't dream about it every night it would be easier. I wish I could sleep for 12 months and feel more like myself again. Everyone thinks I'm coping so well, but I'm not I'm a mess. But that's our secret....

It's all meetings....

2006-03-30T08:43:00.000+01:00

I've got a big meeting tomorrow with the sociities. I hope they all turn up! So today I'm going to be preparing for it which will be fun. Trying to engage everybody is the hardest thing about my job so far. Hopefully a couple of years down the line I won't have that problem!

Stayed late last night for a meeting and it was really good, just a shame there wasn't more people there. Student apathy another hard thing about my job....

Books

2006-03-29T10:51:00.000+01:00

I'm currently re-reading Gone With The Wind. In my opinion it is one of the best books ever. the characters are so rich and full of life. i can understand why sequals have been attempted but I could never bring myself to read any of them. It's a book that when you read it you laugh, cry, fall in love, fall out of love, live and die, it's a full-on experience. I always feel exhausted after a few pages. It is exactly how a book should be. The film is just as good, never has there been better casting than Vivian Leigh and Clarke Gable.

It suits my mood....

Meetings shmeetings

2006-03-28T11:09:00.000+01:00

Another significant day, they're all bloody significant at the moment! Why can't I have a nice boring average day that the turn my life is going to take doesn't depend on the outcome? I'm looking forward to feet up and No Angels on the telly tonight as then the nasty meet-up will be over. I keep thinking I'm living someone else's life, all this shit can't be happenning to me but it is!

Fingers Crossed

2006-03-27T10:42:00.000+01:00

Got the news I was waiting for, now for the meeting from hell to get over with and hopefully I'll get the outcome I want. If not I'll cope if i've learnt nothing else I've learnt that. It's a very nice feeling knowing that you can rely on yourself, I'm a lot stronger than I thought I was.

Good and bad

2006-03-24T17:20:00.000+01:00

A fairly mixed day but i'm still smiling. My face will crack into a million pieces soon....

Better

2006-03-23T09:25:00.000+01:00

Had a really good night out last with Rebecca. It was nice to sit and laugh and not have my problems intruding on my thoughts all the time.I slept really well too and for once did not have horrible dreams that won't come true. Instead I had a very nice dream that probably won't come true!

After a bad few days I now feel better again. Work is really helping me through it as I have quite a lot on at the moment. I still ahven;t ahd my news about my job confirmed, lthought I have now heard unoffically that it is happenning. i will wait till I hear offically before I get too excited!

If my plans don't come to anything, at least i know I've tried every possabilty. If I go down I go down fighting!

Still waiting

2006-03-22T13:02:00.000+01:00

Yesterday didn't turn out how i thought at all. I am still waiting for 2 crucial bits of information before I know where I stand. I feel like I'm living someone else's life at the moment, it really is hell on earth and I'm walking around trying to smile and pretend it's all going to be ok but it isn't.

D-Day

2006-03-21T09:37:00.000+01:00

It's strange to think that by the end of the day I will have an idea of my whole future. Normally you don't know beforehand that a day is going to turn out like that. At least I should have soem answers by the end of the day, even though they might not be the answers I want!

I'm wearing red today to try and appear braver than I actually feel. I've had a very bad couple of days but hopefully today will be better.....

Which muppet are you?

2006-03-20T12:21:00.000+01:00

You Are Rowlf the Dog

Mellow and serious, you enjoy time alone cultivating your talents.
You're a cool dog, and you always present a relaxed vibe.
A talented pianist, you can play almost anything - especially songs by Beethoven.
"My bark is worse than my bite, and my piano playing beats 'em both."

The Muppet Personality Test

D-Day approaches

2006-03-20T11:16:00.000+01:00

Had a nice weekend just relaxing and sleeping! It was nice to have some time on my own after going back to work. Tomorrow is a big day for me, I will find out 2 very important things and those things will determine my future! How scary is that?????

I spent some of my vouchers yesterday and got 2 books for £20 which I thought was very reasonable. I bought David Copperfield, A tale of two cities, Martin Lewis' book and a book about the last years of Henry VIII's reign. Knowledge is power......

Fridays ain't what they used to be....

2006-03-17T09:50:00.000+01:00

I'm really tired after 2 late nights at work and 1 night out. It will be a relief to have a night in and relax after I've been shopping.

Last night's talk went really well, there were about 60 people there which is a fantastic turn-out and apparantly they've had slightly higher numbers throughout the week. The talk was called to clash or not to clash and was really interesting. The speaker quoted Malcolm X which is always a good sign in my humble opinion....

I'm down at Civic later for a meeting with soemone who wants to set up a Magic Society so if we could get that going that would be fun!

Not a good day today but at least i'll know more by the end of it than I do now.

Work and work

2006-03-16T09:51:00.000+01:00

Was at work till 8.30 last night as I was attending a meeting about STAR that raises awareness about refugees and asylum seekers and campaigns for the rights of refugees and assists both them and asylum seekers locally through volunteering. (If it sounds like I've copied that from a pamphlet, I did!) It was quite a successful meeting and the students managed to organize some events starting next week! If only they were all so focused and organized!

Another late night tonight, I'm attending an Islamic Society talk entitled to clash or not to clash. I'm positively throwing myself into my work.....

Some good news at last!

2006-03-15T09:27:00.000+01:00

I actually got some good news yesterday. My job is going to 52 weeks a year subject to a meeting next Tuesday, I'm moving offices and sharing with Charlie and I will become a member of the SAD team but best of all I'll be on flexi! I've been waiting for this news for so long and now it's come it's all a bit of an anti-climax because of all the rest of the shit I'm going through. At least it gives me something else to focus on....

(It bugs me how I always find the bright side of things, I can't wallow for longer than a few days).

Heavy

2006-03-14T10:50:00.000+01:00

When you're hit by one of the worst things you can imagine you can either fight or let it bury you. At the moment I'm fighting for my life literally......

Black Friday

2006-03-03T09:34:00.000+01:00

not the best of days for me already, I'd rather not elaborate. I've got my head above water just, but it sure is an effort.

Walk the Line

2006-03-02T09:45:00.000+01:00

I went to the cinema to see this last night and I'm still not sure what to make of it. The actors were fantastic, they had real chemistry between them, the music was really good too especially when you consider the actors sang their own parts, but the film as a whole just lacked that certain something.

I think one of the reasons was that Johnny Cash's lifestory just isn't that interesting. It's a lot less sensational than say Elvis', Jerry Lee Lewis' or Ray Charles'. Johnny Cash did drugs, left his first wife and lived happily ever after with his second wife with a few headaches in between. Maybe it was the fault of the film that it didn't get in to the depth of Johnny Cash or maybe there was no depth to go to. But I didn't come out thinking I knew the man much better than when I went in!

shin-dig-a -roo

2006-03-01T11:08:00.000+01:00

I've been asked to go to the buffet lunch that Exec have orgnised for the 5 perspective General Managers. I guess that's the clearest sign that things ahve changed for me now in my new job. Office staff get invited, other workers don't. I don;t think I'll be going though, it will just be palm-greasing, arse-licking and a free lunch!(And I've heard a rumour there's no such thing)On the other hand it will be interesting to see what the perspective GMs are like and have people thinking what is she doing here. But may opt for the safety of my office all day as I have quite a bit to do today!

Also the proposal for me to move into my new office is going through either today or Monday which is quite exciting! I will be sharing an office with Charlie, which is cool a) because he's a nice guy and b) cos he's never there! I don;t think it will go through smoothly though as I don't think Di will be too happy but I can't wait!

Going to the cinema tonight to watch Walk the Line with Rebecca, so I'm looking forward to that. I'll be wiping drool from my chin all the way through!

I hate Tuesdays?

2006-02-28T10:24:00.000+01:00

I've always disliked Tuesdays more than Mondays. The thing is you expect mondays to be rubbish, hell I even legislate for it now by saving crap jobs for Mondays. So when you ahev a bad Tuesday it is as a certain cricket chairman said about a certain player's captaincy like a slap in the face with a wet fish!

I have taken steps to try and make sure that this particular Tuesday isn't so bad at all, but only time will tell if they have succeeded.....

On a brighter note it is sunnier outside and also inside than it was yesterday which is all good. I knew pink would work wonders eventually!

Grey

2006-02-27T10:40:00.000+01:00

Sometimes the day seems grey even though it's sunny outside and you're all dressed up in pink to chase the grey away. Today it isn't working.

Sleetarama

2006-02-24T10:14:00.000+01:00

It's sleeting here and there's quite a strong wind, I felt like Edmund Hillary going to work today but I finally made it! I'm soaked to the bone though and am sat here wrapped up in a top, a cardigan and a pashmener! (Spell check doesn;t recognize pashmener so I'm going for the phonic option!)

I've been disappointed all week that I'm not going to Saints, but after being outside can't say I feel that way now. R is going out in York tonight, so it's just me and the TV and I can shout and scream as much as I want at the rugby without irritating anyone!

I still feel a bit tires and run-down today but inside I'm back to my sunny self which is a relief, when I'm down I'm really down....

Going to Dad's tomorrow overnight with R which should be good. I don't go enough but it's difficult when you feel there's only you making the effort, especially when it's been that way for so many years.

Guilt again!

2006-02-23T09:31:00.000+01:00

You know the scenario, you've slagged someone off, made fun of them and then something really shit happenns to them and you feel responsable! Why is this? I have no loyalty to this person, she's a complete pain in the ass but I still feel guilty because I didn't like her and now something awful ahs happenned to her.

"I must stop being bitchy"
"I must stop being bitchy"

Hell no!

Just call me Lady Macbeth...

2006-02-22T11:16:00.000+01:00

The longer you go without blogging, the guilter you feel so in the end you don't blog at all!You keep coming back, think about it for a bit and then don't! Well, here I am, back but completely tongue-tied (or should that be type-tied?) So much has happenned, so much has stayed the same, it would eb a crime to try and document it all so I won't even try.

i ahve been off work for 2 days with a swollen eye and acute tiredness, I'm back today, my eye is still swollen and I'm still knackered but thought I'd make the effort! I'm also out tonight for Rebecca's Birthday and there's no way I could not go to work and then go out. We all have a particular or even perculiar moral code and that's mine.

I've started my new job now, which is fun and a lot more interesting than my old job. I don't have to wear a uniform which is nice as I feel more confident in my own clothes!

As someone once said "I will not diminish my personailty"

Fridaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

2005-11-11T12:19:00.000+01:00

It's the end of the week and it's fair to say I have that Friday feeling! I don;t want to do any work, I want to relax and have fun and most of all I want it to be 4'o clock and time to go!

There was no offical miniute's silence at work today which I find disgraceful. It's political correctness gone mad. Lest we forget.......more like some have forgotten already. God bless all those brave men and women who gave their lives and their youth for us.

I've started listening to Galaxy at work which is mainly dance with a bit of RnB, I'm finding it chills me out more at work and cheers me up.

The second episode of Rome was even better, less shagging more history!

Rome

2005-11-08T16:00:00.000+01:00

Rome started last week and I have to say I enjoyed it immensely. It's good to see a good old-fashioned epic on our screens again. It was a delcious romp from start to finish, lots of sex, and violence. Marc Anthony's portrayel reminded me of Eddie Paynter's comment on Wally Hammond, he liked a shag.....

We only came 3rd in the quiz last night, I'm sure Hudson jinxed us. We still won a bottle of wine though which me and rebecca have claimed for when we next spend an evening in, so it wasn't all bad.

GB lost and it was in the last 7 minuites so was very depressing and even I'm losing hope now!

GB V OZ

2005-11-04T14:30:00.000+01:00

I sat at home last night and listened to my best uplifting classics CD. It included Pomp amd Circumastance and the 1812 Overture. When I closed my eyes I could see Keith Senior running in for the match winning try last year at the JJB and me, R, Andy and Paul going mental at the front. Believe...........

Torches and pies

2005-11-01T10:31:00.000+01:00

The clocks have gone back and it's amazing what a difference losing an hour makes.It's now light when I set off for work and dark on the way home. This means that I risk permenent eye strain trying to read my book from the lights of the Morrison's car park while I wait for my bus home. I'm seriously thinking of getting a torch, but that's very girl guidey, but better than specs.

I finally got soem news on the work front and have a meeting with my boss today to discuss it. I'm not sure if I'll get as much as I want or hope from it but at least it's a step forward.

Farsley won again on saturday, God it was cold and the pies have gone up. Is nothing sacred?

Who are you?

2005-10-27T12:17:00.000+01:00

The Shay

2005-10-24T16:08:00.000+01:00

I would not wish a visit to The Shay in Halifax on anyone. It is a "new" stadium with old facilities as the council/the clubs have run out of money. It has temporary toilets that have been temporary since I first visited 5 years ago. It has bits cornered off because they're not finished or are dangerous. You can't get a beer at the away end and worst of all they charge you £13 for of entering! We are so ripped off in this country, not to mention Farsley lost 2-0 in the FA cup prelim round.

You could watch England/France play rugby league for £10, not that many did! (Ironically in another stadium where one end is being knocked down!)The national pride in this country is appalling. When will people realize you don't have to be a member of the NF to be proud of being British. Some of us embrace the many cultures that are now preleverant. Don't get me started I'm on several soap boxes today!

Winter!

2005-10-19T10:09:00.000+01:00

Winter is finally here, its cold and rainy and the big duvet is on! It would be really depressing if I wasn't looking forward to Christmas. Before I know it I will have broken up and will be investing in an orgy of eating and drinking. The only time of the year when your conscious takes a rest and actually encourages you to eat chocolate for breakfast and as many sandwiches between meals as you can possibly eat. Happy days!

Further to my post about Daniel Craig being the new bond. The Daily Mirror described him as James Bland, which just goes to show what a a pile of crap this paper is, it has gone even more downhill since Piers Morgan was made to resign, at least he was entertaining not to mention as mad as a hatter.

I have nothing to say about the GF except we were beaten by a better team and if you go to Manchester, try to make time to pop into Retro bar. It's fab.

Quote of the day: "Rugby league is like rare steak, rugby union is like porridge"
Robbo on the BBC website

New James Bond Announced

2005-10-12T09:50:00.000+01:00

The new James Bond has been announced and it's Daniel Craig. What a superb choice. Daniel has been in the news recently as part of the nortourious Primose Hill set, having allegedlly had affairs with both Kate Moss and Sienna Miller. He will probably be relieved that people are talking about his acting again. He will be the first blonde James Bond, he's smooth enough to cut in my opinion.

I watched a really interesting documentry on the kidnap of Ronnie Biggs last night. In 1981 he was kidnapped from Brazil and taken to Barbados by boat so he could be extadited to Britain. this didn't happen as Bigg's legal team found that the extradition treaty had'nt been signed, so Biggs was deported back to Brazil. What was really fascinating about the whole story was that the kidnappers never knew who had employed them, whether it was one of the intelligence services, the governement directly or Scotland Yard. Talk about 9 lives, I think Biggs had about 20.

Lifts

2005-10-07T15:13:00.000+01:00

The disabled lift is now finished, unfortunately it seems to require an able-bodied person to operate it. Its a complete shambles and has cost 30 grand to build!! Wednesday night will dawn and it will be see how many rugby players you can fit in a lift and it will be knackered, you mark my words. I am glad the sawing, hammering and drilling has stopped but can't help thinking they'll be out every Thursday morning to fix it so it may become a weekly treat! They have also fitted "ramps" which are bits of ply-wood cut down. Pay lots of money, get monkeys anyway!

Bulls play Saints tonight to see who gets in the GF. I can't help hoping Saints win, us and Saints have been far and away the best two teams in the league, but tell it to St George and Paramatta.......

Went out last night with Jean. Wethersppoons special, curry and a pint for Â£4.99. It's not the best but it's certainly not the worst, although I'm not sure my body agrees with that statement at this particular moment.

A night in ain't what it was...

2005-10-05T15:50:00.000+01:00

I don't know if it's because I'm getting older but now when I get home from work, I would much rather listen to music than watch tv. The standard of British tv at the moment is at an all time low, it's all true life, low budget reality tv, soaps, mediocre dramas with the odd gem thrown in. If it wasn't for sport it wouldn't be worth having a television at all. Is this waht the great British public accepts and even enjoys as the norm? The BBC used to be known for its costume dramas, these seem to have gone out of the window. the bosses that be should take note as soon there wil be more people like me who resent paying a licence fee for a channel they never watch. Give us more Michael Palin, more dramas, hell even a decent comedy but don't sell us short, we deserve better.

Stepping off my soap box, we won the pub quiz on Monday. I have a feeling we will be barred soon if this winning streak continues. We've only paid for one pint in the last 3 visits!

Million Doller turkey?

2005-10-03T14:56:00.000+01:00

Me and R got Million Dollar Baby out on sky Box office last night and I still can't decide whether I like it or not. all the actors were absolutly superb but the film itself mainly left me cold. It was very depressing and very American, maybe been British explains why it didn't do anything for me. Its a film that stays in your mind, so I guess I'll ponder it some more and get back to you....

One thing I am very excited about is Fable: the lost chapters, it's coming out for the x-box at the end of the month. The reviews say it only has a few extra bits in, but I still want it. i never understood people who loved computer games until I played this. Now I just want Monkey Island re-issued for the x-box.

Me and R also went to the West End for a yummy Sunday lunch. I had home-made muligatony soup for starter and beef Sunday lunch for main course. It was served with cabbage, which I love but never cook at home as I never get it quite right.

The best thing about the entire weekend was we won at Saints! It was one of the most tense matches I've ever been to. When you're 19-0 up with 10 minuites to go, you do tend to think its won, pity no one told Jamie Lyon that. With 5 minuites to go it was 19-16 and Lyon had scored 2, created one and kicked 2 out of 3 goals off the touchline. Thankfully we managed to hang on and its OT here we come.

Bring on the Saints!

2005-09-30T13:08:00.000+01:00

We're playing St Helens tonight in the Grand final eliminator and I can't tell you how nervous I am. We have been so poor since the cup final and I can't help thinking that if we don't win tonight we won't get to O.T. We need that extra week to get Senior fit and re-group. So even though we have another chance if we lose, it all feels loaded on tonight!

Feel a lot better now, three early nights in a row have done the trick. It s really dull going to bed early though, talk about no life except work and sleep.... I know I was bad earlier in the week as I can't remember anything about Tuesday or Wednesday at all, they just feel like one long day.

I'd like to say I know what's happenning with my job, but that would be a lie, it is now almost 3 weeks since I was informed and I'm still carrying on in the same old way. I feel its unfair on me that I don't know what's happenning and unfair on the students that they think this service is available when it could close any day. But my views don't seem to matter one iota.

Cola lovers-do not read!

2005-09-28T14:25:00.000+01:00

COKE
>1. In many states (in the USA) the highway patrol carries two gallons of
>Coke in the trunk to remove blood from the highway after a car accident.
>
>2. You can put a T-bone steak in a bowl of coke and it will be gone in two
>days.
>
>3. To clean a toilet: Pour a can of Coca-Cola into the toilet bowl and let
>the "real thing" sit for one hour, then flush clean. The citric acid in
>Coke
>removes stains from vitreous china.
>
>4. To remove rust spots from chrome car bumpers: Rub the bumper with a
>rumpled-up piece of Reynolds Wrap aluminium foil dipped in Coca-Cola.
>
>5. To clean corrosion from car battery terminals: Pour a can of Coca-Cola
>over the terminals to bubble away the corrosion.
>
>6. To loosen a rusted bolt: Applying a cloth soaked in Coca-Cola to the
>rusted bolt for several minutes.
>
>7. To bake a moist ham: Empty a can of Coca-Cola into the baking pan, wrap
>the ham in aluminium foil, and bake. Thirty minutes before the ham is
>finished, remove the foil, allowing the drippings to mix with the Coke for
>a
>sumptuous brown gravy.
>
>8. To remove grease from clothes: Empty a can of coke into a load of greasy
>clothes, add detergent, and run through a regular cycle. The Coca-Cola will
>help loosen grease stains. It will also clean road haze from your
>windshield.
>
>FOR YOUR INFORMATION:
>1. The active ingredient in Coke is phosphoric acid. Its pH is 2.8. It will
>dissolve a nail in about four days. Phosphoric acid also leaches calcium
>from bones and is a major contributor to the rising increase in
>osteoporosis.
>
>2. To carry Coca-Cola syrup (the concentrate) the commercial truck must use
>the Hazardous Material place cards reserved for highly corrosive materials.
>
>3. The distributors of coke have been using it to clean the engines of
>their
>trucks for about 20 years!
>
>
>Now the question is, would YOU like a glass of water or Coke

Freshers flu continues

2005-09-28T13:46:00.000+01:00

I'm still at work even though I was really tempted to phone in sick, and I'm still feeling very sorry for myself and completly resenting being here when I could be asleep all cosy in bed! Today has officially been the longest day ever. I must've been here at least 9 days not a mere 51/2 hours!

Today there have been workmen drilling, hammering, sawing outside my unit and I complained and everyone thought I was dead pathetic but it wasn't outside their office. Also the workmen have spread their tools, boxes, wires all along the entrance so no one can get in or out, so I'm kind of open but not really, if someone trips on a hammer its their own risk! Then I was putting the over-head heater on and the fuse blew and I got a mini-electric shock and it went boom and my hear beat still hasn't slowed down even though it was several hours ago.

Most of all I wish they'd make their God damn minds up about what I'll be doing so i can focas on that and not be treading water, every single day I'm at work.

Fresher's Flu

2005-09-27T09:33:00.000+01:00

I've got what is commonly known as fresher's flu. Every year the SU fills up with students from all over the country with their own unique germs and every year within the first month the staff are felled one by one with colds, throat infections, coughs etc. The name itself is telling, as it is far from flu but damn annoying at the same time.

My throat feels like its on fire and I feel very sorry for myself and have just eaten a sausage sandwich which made me feel a bit better but also very guilty...

Oscar again

2005-09-21T14:20:00.000+01:00

Last night, Oscar (my favourite dog in the whole wide world) sat on my knee and went to sleep but he wouldn't let go of his new toy which is a special bone which cleans his teeth. I love Oscar and I so want a King Charles now. Most people my age are thinking of adding children to their families, but I want to see if I can care for a dog first. I don't have to give birth to that either!

Oscar is getting quite big now and likes to scratch your face if you don't pay him attention. R got his face scratched twice! His favourite game is rope, but he's getting a bit strong to play that with him now! Last week when R went to his mum's on his own, he got to walk him and he pulled all the way as he's so friendly he wants to meet everybody.

I can't wait till we get a dog!

Work....

2005-09-19T15:40:00.000+01:00

After pratically 4 months off its no easy thing to come back to work, especially when your week back consists of 7 days instead of your usual 5, but that's exactly what has happened! I will however be glad next week when I get paid lots of money! Lots of money I have already spent! I reckon if I won 50 million on the Euro millions, I would still be skint, "Damn I can't go on that world cruise" would be better than "I can't afford a packet of crisps" though!

Still no news on what I'll be doing on the job front, I'm quite excited but I'm sure it won't be what I imagined.

Mid-week Blues

2005-09-14T16:17:00.000+01:00

I still know nothing.....

Work is like I've never been away now, everyone bending your ear and getting on your nerves. Its like a building sight with dust and paint everywhere. It doesn't look like it'll be ever be ready to open, never mind next week. Its awful!

anyway I'm in a really bad mood and fed up, the novelty has so worn off.

Back for good...

2005-09-13T13:01:00.000+01:00

...as Take That memroably sung. I'm now back at work so now have supreme internet access. Work is not what I expected. I don't want to jinx anything by posting details but odd is certainly good in this case.

I feel like I'm putting on an old comfy pair of jeans writing here again, any trivial shit that is bothering me or I feel the need to shout out loud via the internet gets put down here.

England won the Ashes yesterday and everywjere in GB has Ashes fever apart from my work! Yesterday was a nightmare as I watched the score update on the net, (I would've listened to it but some bastard has nicked my computer speakers). No interest at all elsewhere in the building, it was like having a small quiet part of The Oval all to myself. I'm so pleased for the England boys, they gave it everything and the women's team also won the Ashes so we're just an all round winning nation for once!

I'll wake up in a minute...

2005-08-24T13:47:00.000+01:00

Today I am posting in the local library which is only 2 minutes from my house. I can't explain how amazing it is to have so many facilities on your doorstep when you are used to having none at all. I am still pinching myself every day, wondering if I do really live here in a fabulous house with my fabulous husband and the bruises clinch it, I really do. (The bruises are from my pinching not my fabulous husband obviously!!!)

We are still waiting for our sofa to arrive though which makes chilling out on an evening rather difficult.... Apart from that, everything is wonderful yet being me I'm waiting for it all to crash and burn around me. I'm just trying to enjoy it!

This weekend we're going to Llandrignog Wells for the cup final. It really is the back of beyond, but its the people you're with that's important. I hope we win the cup as then we'll have all the trophies in our cabinet. That would have been unthinkable 18 months ago.

Lazerus is back!

2005-08-22T15:15:00.000+01:00

I don't know how long this particular come back will last as I still have no access to a pc at home and am not back at work for another 3 weeks.

So much has happened!We've been to see Oasis, Meatloaf and Coldplay in concert, had a fab time in Blackpool watching the darts and we've moved house! I now live in a lovely 2 bedroom house, in a quiet street with shops, pubs and everything I could desire on my doorstep.It feels more like home than the flat did already and we only moved in 2 weeks ago. I feel so happy, it feels like my life is all clicking into place..........

I've really missed the internet in general and posting on here in particular, but hopefully we'll get our provider sorted out in the next couple of weeks.

U2

2005-06-16T12:17:00.000+01:00

First of all I must apoligise for the lack of blogging. I still have no internet access and have not had time to come to the library so I've been using my mum's computer. My mum is the least nosy person I know and has a huge respect for privacy, but it just doesn't feel right typing my blog in front of her. I am a person who needs secrets.

All that aside me and R went to se U2 at Manchester City staduim last night. i hate been proved wrong but I have to admit they were brilliant. Their set lasted about 2 hours and I suprised myself by really getting into it. R was made up, he got a tour t-shirt but drew the line at the programme which was £15!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm working for a couple of weeks in the shop at City next week and the week after so should be able to use the computers at work after my shift. So I'll try not to be too much of a stranger!

Oscar

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Oscar was lovely he sat on my knee and tried to eat my locket. It was nice going somewhere where someone is so genuinely pleased to see you. He's tiny, not much bigger than a piglet but has a lovely tan and black coat with white pads on his paws. I thought all Kings Charles's were brown and white but they can be black, tan or gold too. At least it means that the budgie gets ignored which is all good, that budgie was the bane of my life. I can't stand birds anyway and have inherited from Granna the thought they are unlucky, so when you go to someone's house and they ahve it flying round the room while you're sat there, its pretty tempting to open the window!

On Tueday,Me,Mum and R went to Liverpool to check out the Beatles. We took Mum to the museum where we went a few weeks go. Then we went on the Magical Mystery tour, which takes you round Liverpool showing you where the Beatles were born, where they went to school, where Strawberry Fields and Penny Lane are and much more. On the day we went Strawberry Fields was closing its doors for the last time. It was a Salvation Army children's home whose grounds backed onto John Lennon's family home. When John was 4 he apparantly heard a band palying and asked his Aunt Mimi if he could go listen to it. Aunt Mimmi took him to Strawberry Fields where the Salvation army was playing and it is said that is when John decided he wanted to be a musician.

The highlight of the tour however was the last palce we visited which was the Cavern Club. The original club was knocked down in 1981 and then rebuilt on the same site a few years later. When we went in there, there was a guy playing guitar and singing. He was brilliant and we all got really into it. It was like you could still feel the atmosphere of the place and the echo of all the great bands that had played there.

We also saw the famous brick wall which is on the other side of the street outside the Cavern pub. Rebecca's Dads's band The Pressmen have a brick there near freddie and the Dreamers and Cilla!

It wa one of those days when you didn't want to go home as you'd seen so much and wanted to see more. I'll get the pictures back today though so that will be like being there all over agian. the next tiem we go we ent to go round John and Paul's family homes respectivily. I if didn't live here, I'd love to live in Liverpool.

A Hard day's Night

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I've been so busy the last few days and have so much to blog that I know I won't get it all down and will be typing till next week, which will mean another back-log. So here are some highlights.

Saturday

Met Peter Manley and his lovely wife Chrissy as they were opening a betting shop for their sponsers. Peter is great and said he'll come and sit with us at Blackpool.

Sunday

Went to Woodies where we lost the pub quiz miserably and Jon wasn't allowed to play darts. Oh and saw Kam, Neil and Ravi AGAIN!

Monday

Went to Farsley to have another look round. Watched Manley lose in the semi-finals.

Tuesday

Will write about tomorrow when I'm last tired, but the title is a clue!

Wednesday

Going to Jill's to meet Oscar, Jill and Euan's 6 week old King Charles!

Powell has gone!

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Darryl has now left us for the Tykes. I like to think its a descion he has made himself, based on the fact that he has Buckley's chance of taking over from Tony Smith (after all he has no white chinos!). But I guess we'll never know the full story. It also of course opens up speculation about who will take over the white chino's mantle......... I haven't a clue, i can't think of one coach who I'd like to have apart from ian Millwald and thats as likely as him taking over at Wigan!

I'm loving the library keyboard, most of the letters ahve faded away on my machine and they have put day-glo stickers on all teh keys instead. It helps my ytping no end. However I am still unable to read Sid's blog. what are you doing girl to require this amount of censorship????

The house situation is moving on, albeit slowly. I can't be arsed documenting the cock-ups, suffice it to say I'll be glad when its all over.

I wouldn't believe this if I wasn't sat here listening to it, but there are a group of peple behind me doing a course on how to use Blogger! I feel like my own private world has been taken over by the City Council!