Meh!

It's all change and no change at the moment. I feel a bit up and down at the moment. Christmas is a funny time of year for bringing back a lot of memories that you'd rather not remember. Somrtimes you get a bit fed up of battling, but other days like today I quite enjoy it. I had another bad weekend but have had quite an up week. Hopefully it will continue.

Feeling Philisophical

Today is strange, I feel strong and upbeat even if life does suck today. One little thing and I will ok again, but sometimes a little thing can be the biggest thing of all. Sometimes I wish I was a buddist, personal growth leading to personal fullfillment. Instead of all this uncertainty and bullshit. Pateince is certainly not a virture I pocess and why should I be bloody patient? Why can't people just treat you with the respect you deserve? Rant to be continued in my head all day and all night long...

Running out of Gas?

Same old, same old which is sometimes nice but is sometimes boring as hell. I'm so restless at the moment, I just go from being really hyper and focused to having no energy and no inclanation to do anything. I'd say it was the drugs but I don't do any.

Today is a hyper day where I feel really with it and don't really question anything. This morning was a "Hmmmm is this boring me now", which changed to a "maybe" which changed to "what the fuck". Sometimes a car just runs out of gas and you have to decidee whether to ditch the car or fill it up again and things are getting close to that point...

And here's to you...

I am now a divorcee! I will be playing the Mrs Robinson role with relish. Hmmm could be very dangerous in my line of work! Ah well pretty happy with what I've got at the moment, no hassle and fun, a policy of non-involvement. Casual it's the future. Sorry my cough is really playing up at the moment...

"Buried alive in the Blues"

Where has the time gone?

Things here are as usual a bit maaaad. It seemed like they were calming down but it wasn't to be. This year has been really good, really bad and most of all really strange. Sometimes it feels like this has all happenned to soemone else and then i realise this is my life and it's all happenning now. It's all rather exciting and rather unreal at the same time, peaks and troughs doesn't even come close!

Yay!

It has been so busy and I'm so tired but it has so far all been worth it! Work is very good at the moment and there are 2 new socities int he pipeline to be discussed at the next exec meeting, one more and my target is achieved! Hooray!

I've had a lot of shit this week, nasty messages on answer phones, my front room flooding, no sleep and lots of hours at work but I'm still smiling just!

I am bloody fantastic!

Working weekend

This weekend, I've worked and got lashed and that's about it. Friday was mad, Saturday was recovering and Sunday was not bad at all.

At least the students seem nice this year, last year there were some little gits at Kirkstall, but this year they were all lovely.

Looking forward to the next couple of weeeks being over as work is mad and I have too much going on at the moment to devote enough time to it all.